Rip the earth in two with your mind
Seal the urge which ensues with brass wires
I never meant you any harm
But your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearm
But close my eyes for a while
Force from the world a patient smile
How can you say that your truth is better than ours?
Shoulder to shoulder, now brother, we carry no arms
The blind man sleeps in the doorway, his home
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won
But I gave you all
Close my eyes for a while
Force from the world a patient smile
But I gave you all
But you rip it from my hands
And you swear it’s all gone
And you rip out all I have
Just to say that you’ve won
Well now you’ve won
Mumford and Sons
Have you ever met someone that you instantly feel there’s something special about them? Like maybe some weird emotional chemistry that’s unsaid, but you both just know. Like an emotional, intellectual stimulation. Idk what I’m even saying.
When you plan your whole future with someone and it doesn’t turn out how it was ‘supposed to.’
I dropped VCU for him.
I left the state for him.
My friends, family, everything I previously knew as my life. I left it all for a life with him that looked so promising.
Perhaps I was just running away from everything. I always do that. I can never stay in one place for too long.
Everything I did in vain. I used to look down on people who made decisions like I’ve made recently. I used to be so independent, emotionally. Now I don’t even know where I am, or who I am.
Maybe I need to meditate again. Refresh my spiritual self. All I know is everything is fucked.
It’s been too long.
I Suppose when I feel at my worst is always when I resort to posting this shit on Tumblr that no one ever reads. I miss it though, regardless.
I feel like I’m back in high school. Blasting music, shoving shit up my nose, and drinking beer. The only thing missing is my bowl being filled. We can’t have it all though.
